Aug. 2nd, 2021
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 09:53 amI reblogged a headcanon ficlet I'd written in Dec 2012 about Noatak in his early Amon days:
Almost Forgotten
It was unsettling, sometimes, to realize that he’d almost forgotten his name, and still more unsettling that he’d never quite managed it. He wasn’t Amon, of course; that was the hooded mask, pure and bloodless, an image his mind projected onto the stage. He was—Noatak of the Water Tribe, his mind answered him back, Yakone’s son, prodigy bender. His fingernails dug into the weak human flesh of his palms. But perhaps there was an advantage in it. He needed information, and the truth could be its own disguise.
So, now and then, Noatak walked down the street in blue-lined grey, his face and hands unpainted. You can trust me, I’m a waterbender, I’m one of you. No more of a lie than any of the others he’d told. Men laughed and joked with him, women flirted with him—that would never be anything but strange—and occasionally, Triad members thought they’d spotted an easy target in his thin, slouching figure. He quickly disabused them of the notion, but fighting them, fighting without restraining any part of himself, slicing and icing, chi-blocking, dodging, bloodbending all at once, brought with it a rush like nothing else. In those earlier days, when he was still restless, his power gnawing at him, he often found excuses to get lost in Red Monsoon territory.
My father’s land, he thought one evening, wandering home, and laughed to himself. He’d already set two groups of bloodbenders running. Noatak straightened up into his usual confident stride; he didn’t need the moon, unlike those others, but it still strengthened him, until he felt invincible under the bright silver moonlight. Yakone was dead, the Avatar was a child, newspaper clips told him his brother was safe and successful in the capital, he was the greatest bloodbender in the world, and his movement gathering supporters more rapidly than he himself had anticipated.
To his right, he cast a crisp, elongated shadow. He was a tall man, but it towered over him, stretching high and featureless along the alley wall. Now that, he thought, was Amon.
Almost Forgotten
It was unsettling, sometimes, to realize that he’d almost forgotten his name, and still more unsettling that he’d never quite managed it. He wasn’t Amon, of course; that was the hooded mask, pure and bloodless, an image his mind projected onto the stage. He was—Noatak of the Water Tribe, his mind answered him back, Yakone’s son, prodigy bender. His fingernails dug into the weak human flesh of his palms. But perhaps there was an advantage in it. He needed information, and the truth could be its own disguise.
So, now and then, Noatak walked down the street in blue-lined grey, his face and hands unpainted. You can trust me, I’m a waterbender, I’m one of you. No more of a lie than any of the others he’d told. Men laughed and joked with him, women flirted with him—that would never be anything but strange—and occasionally, Triad members thought they’d spotted an easy target in his thin, slouching figure. He quickly disabused them of the notion, but fighting them, fighting without restraining any part of himself, slicing and icing, chi-blocking, dodging, bloodbending all at once, brought with it a rush like nothing else. In those earlier days, when he was still restless, his power gnawing at him, he often found excuses to get lost in Red Monsoon territory.
My father’s land, he thought one evening, wandering home, and laughed to himself. He’d already set two groups of bloodbenders running. Noatak straightened up into his usual confident stride; he didn’t need the moon, unlike those others, but it still strengthened him, until he felt invincible under the bright silver moonlight. Yakone was dead, the Avatar was a child, newspaper clips told him his brother was safe and successful in the capital, he was the greatest bloodbender in the world, and his movement gathering supporters more rapidly than he himself had anticipated.
To his right, he cast a crisp, elongated shadow. He was a tall man, but it towered over him, stretching high and featureless along the alley wall. Now that, he thought, was Amon.
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 11:12 amI reblogged a fic I wrote in April 2013, in response to a prompt from ikkinthekitsune:
AU in which Korra is Noatak and Tarrlok’s younger sister; Yakone finds out his daughter is the Avatar and the consequences thereof?
I meant it to be a drabble, perhaps one or two pages, tops. It grew in the telling, though, so belatedly, here you are!
Tangled State of Mind
Noatak and Tarrlok were almost exactly three years apart, both of them born on frozen, starless nights, blizzards howling around the village as their mother fought to give birth. Korra, though—bright, bold, ferocious little Korra—screamed her way into the world at the height of spring, even as the worst plague in memory crawled across the Earth Kingdom. Tarrlok, the youngest, was already eight, and he remembered it perfectly: he and Noatak, almost sick with fear, running pointless errands that some adult imagined might distract them, Noatak’s fingers digging into his shoulder, painful and reassuring, and then their father ordering them to come inside the tent and see their new baby sister.
To Tarrlok, Korra had been impossibly tiny, her nose and mouth, hands and feet, dwarfed by everyone else’s, even his own. Her eyes, though, wide and blue, seemed to fill up most of her face, and her brown hair poked up in little tufts. He and Noatak stared down at her, fascinated.
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AU in which Korra is Noatak and Tarrlok’s younger sister; Yakone finds out his daughter is the Avatar and the consequences thereof?
I meant it to be a drabble, perhaps one or two pages, tops. It grew in the telling, though, so belatedly, here you are!
Tangled State of Mind
Noatak and Tarrlok were almost exactly three years apart, both of them born on frozen, starless nights, blizzards howling around the village as their mother fought to give birth. Korra, though—bright, bold, ferocious little Korra—screamed her way into the world at the height of spring, even as the worst plague in memory crawled across the Earth Kingdom. Tarrlok, the youngest, was already eight, and he remembered it perfectly: he and Noatak, almost sick with fear, running pointless errands that some adult imagined might distract them, Noatak’s fingers digging into his shoulder, painful and reassuring, and then their father ordering them to come inside the tent and see their new baby sister.
To Tarrlok, Korra had been impossibly tiny, her nose and mouth, hands and feet, dwarfed by everyone else’s, even his own. Her eyes, though, wide and blue, seemed to fill up most of her face, and her brown hair poked up in little tufts. He and Noatak stared down at her, fascinated.
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 12:02 pmAn anon said:
Sometimes, I think about the Lieutenant's reaction when Korra says "And his brother is Councilman Tarrlok!" That's when he starts to get suspicious, out of all the things she said. What do you think happened between Tarrlok's capture (if it wasn't just the capture itself) and the rally to make the Lieutenant react to that sentence?
I replied:
It’s been a long time since I watched that moment, but … my impression is that, in a more egalitarian(lol) organization, Amon’s behaviour wrt Tarrlok would have already raised questions.
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Sometimes, I think about the Lieutenant's reaction when Korra says "And his brother is Councilman Tarrlok!" That's when he starts to get suspicious, out of all the things she said. What do you think happened between Tarrlok's capture (if it wasn't just the capture itself) and the rally to make the Lieutenant react to that sentence?
I replied:
It’s been a long time since I watched that moment, but … my impression is that, in a more egalitarian(lol) organization, Amon’s behaviour wrt Tarrlok would have already raised questions.
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 12:05 pmladytharen/
elperian said:
ah, for the heyday of your jyn/cassian fic writing! I realize everyone moves on and people find new inspirations, but nobody hesitates to say the mean thing so, to say the nice thing, I still think fondly of all the jyn/cassian fic you wrote :)
I replied:
Thank you very much! I appreciate hearing it :)
I couldn’t work myself up to write much of anything for a long while (partly grad school, partly doldrums), so it’s nice to be able to scrape together the inspiration again. But I know the villain stanning corner of a seven-year-old fandom is not what people are following me for, lol.
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ah, for the heyday of your jyn/cassian fic writing! I realize everyone moves on and people find new inspirations, but nobody hesitates to say the mean thing so, to say the nice thing, I still think fondly of all the jyn/cassian fic you wrote :)
I replied:
Thank you very much! I appreciate hearing it :)
I couldn’t work myself up to write much of anything for a long while (partly grad school, partly doldrums), so it’s nice to be able to scrape together the inspiration again. But I know the villain stanning corner of a seven-year-old fandom is not what people are following me for, lol.
Tumblr crosspost (12 November 2019)
Aug. 2nd, 2021 12:16 pmI reblogged a photoset of Hiroshi Sato and Noatak/Amon together, captioned with the canon dialogue:
Hiroshi Sato: I can’t stand to see Asami fighting alongside those… benders.
Amon: We’ll capture them before long. And you will have your daughter back.
I added:
Okay, this scene looks just a little different in retrospect. At the time, it was like “Uh, Amon. You do realize that just capturing her won’t solve all their family problems? And you seem strangely compassionate about the whole situation…”
Now: ahahahahaha omg Amon. He debended Tarrlok and was like, y'all deal with the Avatar, I have to personally cart off this unconscious ex-waterbender because of reasons. Yay captured him now I have my little brother back. Sure, things are a bit tense at the moment, but it’ll work out!
Hiroshi Sato: I can’t stand to see Asami fighting alongside those… benders.
Amon: We’ll capture them before long. And you will have your daughter back.
I added:
Okay, this scene looks just a little different in retrospect. At the time, it was like “Uh, Amon. You do realize that just capturing her won’t solve all their family problems? And you seem strangely compassionate about the whole situation…”
Now: ahahahahaha omg Amon. He debended Tarrlok and was like, y'all deal with the Avatar, I have to personally cart off this unconscious ex-waterbender because of reasons. Yay captured him now I have my little brother back. Sure, things are a bit tense at the moment, but it’ll work out!
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 12:19 pmI reblogged a post I'd made for a Tarrlok Appreciation fest, back in Sep 2012. I still get nice comments on this one!
Ten Facts About Tarrlok
1
Tarrlok left home at seventeen. Although he missed his mother, he was glad to leave his dead-end village behind, and head to his tribe’s great city.
2
When he arrived, he was still more the boy who had begged his brother to stay than the man he would become. Even then, though, he took care to obscure his origins. He invented a completely different obscure village to call home, enough like his real one that any accidental slip would not reveal the truth. He invented completely different parents, but said, truthfully, that his father was a non-bender and his mother a healer.
Tarrlok never thought of himself as a liar, but he was accustomed to surviving in a position of vulnerability. His long years with Yakone and Noatak, learning to talk his away around more dangerous and volatile personalities than his own, had left him more than equipped to manage ordinary people. He knew exactly what to say, and when to say it, and the skill never left him.
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Ten Facts About Tarrlok
1
Tarrlok left home at seventeen. Although he missed his mother, he was glad to leave his dead-end village behind, and head to his tribe’s great city.
2
When he arrived, he was still more the boy who had begged his brother to stay than the man he would become. Even then, though, he took care to obscure his origins. He invented a completely different obscure village to call home, enough like his real one that any accidental slip would not reveal the truth. He invented completely different parents, but said, truthfully, that his father was a non-bender and his mother a healer.
Tarrlok never thought of himself as a liar, but he was accustomed to surviving in a position of vulnerability. His long years with Yakone and Noatak, learning to talk his away around more dangerous and volatile personalities than his own, had left him more than equipped to manage ordinary people. He knew exactly what to say, and when to say it, and the skill never left him.
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 12:39 pmAn anon asked:
hey, are you ever going to write more for 'blood and fire'? i really enjoyed it! no pressure, of course, i was just wondering.
I replied:
Oh, thanks! It’s not one that I usually expect people to care for/want more of, so I’m doubly glad to hear it.
Hmm, it’s hard to say yes or no at the moment. It would have been no a month ago, but now it really depends. I recently re-read it and … while I meant it to sort of stand alone at the time, it doesn’t really conclude (Korra never even realizes Amon and Taraka are sisters!) and it certainly doesn’t get to the point of the art that inspired it.
It’s hard to write by the nature of its content, but I also really like the fundamental premise. So I might get back to it, esp now that I’m working on the main ’verse that it’s specifically an AU of (the edge of darkness). But I can’t say for sure.
(This is rambling, but ... I'm afraid I can't be clearer than that! That one's probably my most #problematic fic, so to me it's got "handle with care" stamped all over it. I do still like it anyway, though.)
hey, are you ever going to write more for 'blood and fire'? i really enjoyed it! no pressure, of course, i was just wondering.
I replied:
Oh, thanks! It’s not one that I usually expect people to care for/want more of, so I’m doubly glad to hear it.
Hmm, it’s hard to say yes or no at the moment. It would have been no a month ago, but now it really depends. I recently re-read it and … while I meant it to sort of stand alone at the time, it doesn’t really conclude (Korra never even realizes Amon and Taraka are sisters!) and it certainly doesn’t get to the point of the art that inspired it.
It’s hard to write by the nature of its content, but I also really like the fundamental premise. So I might get back to it, esp now that I’m working on the main ’verse that it’s specifically an AU of (the edge of darkness). But I can’t say for sure.
(This is rambling, but ... I'm afraid I can't be clearer than that! That one's probably my most #problematic fic, so to me it's got "handle with care" stamped all over it. I do still like it anyway, though.)
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 02:29 pmI responded to a post from pulpofiction/steinbecks about Noatak and Tarrlok, saying:
I like this (especially Noatak being a quintessential waterbender, like Ozai was all about power). I do think Tarrlok was really extremely depressed, though—mostly because powerlessness and futility seem the themes that he keeps reiterating. He was shaped by his father, his father set them on their paths, fate brought them together. IMO he has a lot of self-hatred going on; it’s probably why he hurt himself so badly with the Equalist glove, too (it’s usually read as him being insanely committed to his story, but he goes even beyond even that—he hurts himself worse than we ever see the actual Equalists do to their actual victims).
By the time he leaves the Air Temple, I don’t think he needed much to push him over the edge; Noatak’s amoral cheer probably just confirmed his belief that that their paths were fixed as children and they were irredeemable as a matched set. He could just as easily have attacked Noatak as the boat—probably more easily, in fact—but instead, he made sure that the last thing Noatak heard was comforting, that they both died, and that they died together. I think that’s … significant.
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I like this (especially Noatak being a quintessential waterbender, like Ozai was all about power). I do think Tarrlok was really extremely depressed, though—mostly because powerlessness and futility seem the themes that he keeps reiterating. He was shaped by his father, his father set them on their paths, fate brought them together. IMO he has a lot of self-hatred going on; it’s probably why he hurt himself so badly with the Equalist glove, too (it’s usually read as him being insanely committed to his story, but he goes even beyond even that—he hurts himself worse than we ever see the actual Equalists do to their actual victims).
By the time he leaves the Air Temple, I don’t think he needed much to push him over the edge; Noatak’s amoral cheer probably just confirmed his belief that that their paths were fixed as children and they were irredeemable as a matched set. He could just as easily have attacked Noatak as the boat—probably more easily, in fact—but instead, he made sure that the last thing Noatak heard was comforting, that they both died, and that they died together. I think that’s … significant.
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 02:34 pmI reblogged a one-shot that I'd originally posted in Oct 2012.
Second Chance
Tarrlok’s remorse was genuine enough. He’d had days to dwell on his brother’s flaws and then, eventually, his own, to see all the places where they overlapped: the same thirst for power, the same determination to get their way at any cost, the same zealotry that made them more dangerous than mere opportunists could ever have been. Between them they’d wrecked a city.
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Second Chance
Tarrlok’s remorse was genuine enough. He’d had days to dwell on his brother’s flaws and then, eventually, his own, to see all the places where they overlapped: the same thirst for power, the same determination to get their way at any cost, the same zealotry that made them more dangerous than mere opportunists could ever have been. Between them they’d wrecked a city.
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 02:42 pmprofessional-superhero said:
What is up guess who watched the entire first season of LoK in the past two days because of your posts about the bloodbending brothers? It’s me. Man what a compelling narrative. Lile, i‘d been vaguely meaning to watch LOK but never really got around to it and now here i am :D
I said:
YESSS, I CLAIM ANOTHER VICTIM
Welcome!!
What is up guess who watched the entire first season of LoK in the past two days because of your posts about the bloodbending brothers? It’s me. Man what a compelling narrative. Lile, i‘d been vaguely meaning to watch LOK but never really got around to it and now here i am :D
I said:
YESSS, I CLAIM ANOTHER VICTIM
Welcome!!
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 02:47 pmAn anon said:
I actually follow you even though I am only sort of in most of your fandoms (I've watched AtLA but not Korra, I've read Pride and Prejudice but only like twice, I watched Rogue One but haven't read any fic for it, etc.) because I enjoy reading thoughtful, considerate analyses of source texts, and your meta are always fascinating to read even when I'm only loosely familiar with the canon! So I'm happy with waterbending brothers amd everything :)
I replied:
Oh, thank you! On all fronts, but it’s especially nice to hear at the moment :)
I actually follow you even though I am only sort of in most of your fandoms (I've watched AtLA but not Korra, I've read Pride and Prejudice but only like twice, I watched Rogue One but haven't read any fic for it, etc.) because I enjoy reading thoughtful, considerate analyses of source texts, and your meta are always fascinating to read even when I'm only loosely familiar with the canon! So I'm happy with waterbending brothers amd everything :)
I replied:
Oh, thank you! On all fronts, but it’s especially nice to hear at the moment :)
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 02:49 pmObviously, there are a lot of things about the bloodbenders’ story that I have emotions about, but despite my Tarrlok feelings, I think the one that gets me the most is creepy teenage Noatak’s sudden outcry of “we’re your SONS!” There’s just this sheer betrayal that cuts through everything.
And rightly so! It’s just … it feels important that even as he gets more warped by bloodbending and the way it amplifies his worst self, he can recognize and insist that what’s happened to them is wrong.
And rightly so! It’s just … it feels important that even as he gets more warped by bloodbending and the way it amplifies his worst self, he can recognize and insist that what’s happened to them is wrong.
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 02:52 pmI updated the Amon fic for the third time in five days. >_>
“I’m Korra, your new Avatar,” she said. He didn’t care about her name, but he paid close attention to her voice: a young woman’s, rather strained and awkward.
Voices crackled in the background. Reporters, he imagined.
“Uh … yes,” said the Avatar, “I am definitely here to stay, but honestly, I—I don’t exactly have a plan yet. See, I’m still in training—”
Ah. He felt almost disappointed. She’d be an inconvenience to be sure, but probably not much of a challenge.
Probably.
Voices crackled in the background. Reporters, he imagined.
“Uh … yes,” said the Avatar, “I am definitely here to stay, but honestly, I—I don’t exactly have a plan yet. See, I’m still in training—”
Ah. He felt almost disappointed. She’d be an inconvenience to be sure, but probably not much of a challenge.
Probably.
Not a crosspost
Aug. 2nd, 2021 04:24 pm(Also not a thing of ... general interest, but I'm doing it anyway :P)
Occasionally, people will send me shots of Luke that are digitally altered to look feminine for Lucy. But the last batch I received got me thinking about how ... I don't quite think of genderbent characters in that way? I mean, Mark Hamill as Luke certainly influences how I imagine Lucy, like e.g. in these shots from ANH—
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Occasionally, people will send me shots of Luke that are digitally altered to look feminine for Lucy. But the last batch I received got me thinking about how ... I don't quite think of genderbent characters in that way? I mean, Mark Hamill as Luke certainly influences how I imagine Lucy, like e.g. in these shots from ANH—
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 05:25 pm
Bryke commentary on this shot:
I just love that last shot of Tarrlok, it’s like…even if he knows it’s impossible, and he knows he has to stop his brother, the other half of him wants to hear those words…’You and me, together again,’ because that’s the little kid in him that only ever wanted to be Noatak’s brother. You know, he just wanted to be with him.
me: !!!!!!!!!! T_T
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 05:29 pmI reblogged a parallels gifset of Tarrlok's henchman revealing that he's a bloodbender/Noatak's lieutenant confronting him over being a bloodbender, and added:
Whoa, a parallel that never occurred to me, but ... yeah. Noatak and Tarrlok can't even seem to help mirroring each other, no matter what they do.
Whoa, a parallel that never occurred to me, but ... yeah. Noatak and Tarrlok can't even seem to help mirroring each other, no matter what they do.
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 05:33 pmBack in February of 2013, steinbecks asked:
Headcanons on the fabulous bloodbending brothers in their early 20s
I replied:
Early 20s:
Okay, so I think that Noatak at fourteen was very little short of Amon, lacking only a cause, but it took A LONG TIME for that to happen, either because he had some decency to shed or it just took him that long to find a cause that resonated with him.
So I think in his early twenties, he’d been wandering around the Earth Kingdom a few years, scraping by on purifying people’s wells and shit, and y'know, he’s proud, it grated on him to be doing that kind of stuff when he’s far more powerful than most benders in positions of power (and more charismatic in a scrubby kind of way). And he’s starting to notice that bender-nonbender conflicts tend to end badly for non-benders, the Kyoshi Warriors should have a training school or something. Also lots of people’s parents seem to have been killed by firebenders, what’s up with that?
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Headcanons on the fabulous bloodbending brothers in their early 20s
I replied:
Early 20s:
Okay, so I think that Noatak at fourteen was very little short of Amon, lacking only a cause, but it took A LONG TIME for that to happen, either because he had some decency to shed or it just took him that long to find a cause that resonated with him.
So I think in his early twenties, he’d been wandering around the Earth Kingdom a few years, scraping by on purifying people’s wells and shit, and y'know, he’s proud, it grated on him to be doing that kind of stuff when he’s far more powerful than most benders in positions of power (and more charismatic in a scrubby kind of way). And he’s starting to notice that bender-nonbender conflicts tend to end badly for non-benders, the Kyoshi Warriors should have a training school or something. Also lots of people’s parents seem to have been killed by firebenders, what’s up with that?
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Aug. 2nd, 2021 07:25 pmcallmeasinnercallmeasaint45 said:
I just finished a rewatch of the whole Korra series (inspired by your lovely posts about the bloodbending brothers) and I want to thank you for getting me back into the series! I watched it once and wasn't really that impressed, and I didn't like Korra as a character at all really except in the final season. Rewatching the show helped me to let go of my biases against it and truly enjoy it as it's own thing. And I never would have done that without your posts about my original faves ❤
I replied:
Oh, thanks! I’m glad you enjoyed it—I love Korra and I’m really fond of the show (obviously).
I’ve been enjoying your reblogs, too :)
I just finished a rewatch of the whole Korra series (inspired by your lovely posts about the bloodbending brothers) and I want to thank you for getting me back into the series! I watched it once and wasn't really that impressed, and I didn't like Korra as a character at all really except in the final season. Rewatching the show helped me to let go of my biases against it and truly enjoy it as it's own thing. And I never would have done that without your posts about my original faves ❤
I replied:
Oh, thanks! I’m glad you enjoyed it—I love Korra and I’m really fond of the show (obviously).
I’ve been enjoying your reblogs, too :)